I’ve struggled with a performance based love mentality. I crave affirmation, yet to what expense? I’m growing in my ability to receive based on who I am rather than focusing on what I can do. In order to do all that God has called me to do, I need my emotions, particularly love to be sanctified/holy. I can’t live with my identity wrapped up in anything outside of God. When I’m fully devoted and fully his without fear crippling me, paralyzing me into thinking or believing I’m not loved, I am free and the most alive I could ever be. This concept of fully embracing and giving love with no strings attached, even if unspoken, is the type of love I want to encapsulate my life. This is true love freely given and freely received.
Grocery Store Blessing
Today, I went to the grocery store and felt like the Lord said to talk with one of the workers. I talked and was friendly and then walked away. As I walked to the aisle to get to get juice, I felt lead to go back and find the man and ask if I could pray for him. He said yes. I prayed and blessed him. The Lord lead me to tell the man that he is seen and that when it seems like no one has his back God’s there for him. He appeared very encouraged. I encourage you to bless someone today. It might feel awkward but go for it!
Truth For You
I see a bolt of lightning bursting forth
I hear God speak to each of you worth
Just as God knows every grain of sand
He knows you when no one understands
He’s the God of hope and salvation
He’s the source of life for every nation
He never authors condemnation
He’s a loving God and very patient
When you don’t know what to do, he’s always near. Give him all your worries and fears.
Call to him he’ll always hear
He always has a listening ear
He may not respond the way you desire but keep seeking him, he never grows tired
When it’s hard to rest and sleep at night
When during the day you’re tired of the fight
Ask him to give you insight
To illuminate your eyes with his sight
He loves you, let this truth sink in
Ask him to come, to dwell within
Ask him to show you how to forgive
It will liberate you, life it will give
You’re an overcomer, he wants you to live
Life abundant, always with him!
It’s been really hard lately. I decided to write. I hope it helps someone else.
My heart is heavy, I feel the weight
of all the years I’ve been in wait.
I thought I had patience but tested again.
I sit here wondering if and when.
I’m not trying to toil with questions unanswered
Many people are tormented with cancers
My burdens are heavy but light to the Lord
He never tires, he’s never bored
I come to him often with a heart that is torn
I ask him to mend it for I am worn
I don’t understand why pain won’t leave
I want to feel better, Lord I am grieved
I want to love, to serve and encourage
Right now Lord I am discouraged
I know I am loved, I know you are my hope
It’s just been hard to live and cope
You are my provider, my help in trouble
You pursue and continue to remove all the rubble
Lord I’m doing my best, I know you see
Thank you for choosing to love me
Help me to rest, be my strength day and night
Lord I will stand, but I need you to fight
You defeated the grave, the enemy won’t win
Jesus your blood was shed for our sins
Lord I pray for freedom and to actually feel
Like my heart, mind and body are actually healed.
Nations Worship United
Lord we come to you tonight united as one. We get to worship you and have fun. Brothers and sisters from different nations. United together because of salvation. Holy Spirit fall fresh on us. Show us what it means to really trust. We surrender our lives, we give you everything. It’s an honor to worship you, our Father, our King. Our voices we raise as we sing you praise. Lord we partner with you all of our days. Without your presence we will not go, for it’s you oh God we need to know. Intimacy with you in the secret place, sets our hearts on fire, lights up our face. Thank you oh God for your love and grace. You bring clarity God, you remove all haze. You bring direction and purpose and set us ablaze. We marvel at you Lord, you totally amaze. We worship you Father, we give you our hearts. We say yes to you God, we’ll do our part!