Love Me Back to Life

The last month has been hard! Full of unexpected challenges and often times answers were no where in sight. Fear became something I encountered often. After battling fear throughout different circumstances in my life, I came to the conclusion the other day that need God to kill the fear inside of me that holds me back from experiencing abundant life. In order for this to happen fear must die and God must love me back to life. I believe he cares and is full of joy to hear this prayer. I encourage you to ask him to take your fear. He already went to the cross to deal with all sin! I don’t want to live afraid rather I want to live courageous. Lord give us the strength and boldness to live for you!

Living With Loss

The loss of a child, the loss of a friend, the loss of a job will tragedy end? I can’t say I understand all the trials and pain, but my heart breaks for those treading through rocky terrain. It’s hard and it’s tiring will the trek ever end? It is hard to take another step and even bend. I hear people say when can I rest? I’ve given life my all, my very best. I wish I could say tomorrow the tide will turn and you will look back and see all you’ve learned. I don’t know when that time will come, but I encourage you to keep walking you are worthy not dumb. You may feel like the world is crumbling under your feet. Remember how much you’ve gone through, living life is quite a feat. I’ve experienced many trials and chosen to believe that there’s treasures that have been deposited in me. Life isn’t easy but I’ve learned much indeed. I pray that these words comfort others in need!

Power of Your Voice

Voices are used to sing and shout. Voices are used to create and cast out doubt. Voices are instruments of praise and adoration. Voices are used to make declarations. How you use your voice is up to you. I want to change the world and speak life, too! There’s so many hurting. I hate when people die because of cancer and suicide. God I want to glorify you not disease, speak through my mouth and heal disease. May the church arise and miracles happen where people around the world get a taste of heaven. I pray we are united as one and honor the Father, Holy Spirit and Son!

Grieving

Grieving is painful and hard! As I was able to process a little tonight, I decided to share what the Lord gave me. He gave me a poem and he gave me assurance: “It’s going to be ok.”

Grieving is hard and full of pain. Sometimes you can’t feel anything. Tears stream down your face and stain. Your heart is broken, the pain it stings. You can’t put your emotions into words. Your thoughts seem to be all over the place. You wonder what direction you’re moving towards. Then in the midst of chaos you find grace. The Lord touches you and gives you space. Space to process and space to grieve. Space to be held and cry with thee. He holds you tight a loving embrace. He looks at you with a smile on his face. Tragedy struck and trauma came. Along cake guilt, pain and shame. But child remember I love you the same. Yesterday, today and tomorrow. I am with in in joy and sorrow. Trust me, you are going to be ok. Though the storm is heavy and the sky is grey. Receive my love, each and every day. You don’t have to strive or try to prove. You just have to rest and simply be you. Let love overflow and heal your soul. Especially when you feel like life’s taking a toll. I suffered great losses this past week. But my God journeys with me through the hills and the peaks. I’m not alone and I’m not afraid. God is my refuge every day! He will help me through the journey of today!

Praying for you as you go through life and process hard things!

Processing When Broken Hearted

Life is hard! When you are hurting you want to be comforted. As I reflected on circumstances I’ve been through and how I’ve handled them, I was reminded that in the midst of pain it’s important to assess and ask yourself some questions:

1.) Who can and should I be vulnerable with when something happens?

2.) When is the appropriate time?

3.) What is appropriate to say?

4.) Where should you say it?

5.) How should you say it?

6.) Why are you saying it?

When anything happens in my life these are some questions I’ve used to help me process. It helps me better understand my feelings and it has helped me be a better person. It is not healthy to involve everyone in your problems. It is not healthy to gossip. It is also not healthy to hold everything inside. My prayer for everyone is that you would find safe people to journey with who can love them well. It’s important to both give and receive love. You can get through pain and circumstances. God has and is helping me through difficulty! Ask him to help you; he will help you, too!

True Love

I’ve struggled with a performance based love mentality. I crave affirmation, yet to what expense? I’m growing in my ability to receive based on who I am rather than focusing on what I can do. In order to do all that God has called me to do, I need my emotions, particularly love to be sanctified/holy. I can’t live with my identity wrapped up in anything outside of God. When I’m fully devoted and fully his without fear crippling me, paralyzing me into thinking or believing I’m not loved, I am free and the most alive I could ever be. This concept of fully embracing and giving love with no strings attached, even if unspoken, is the type of love I want to encapsulate my life. This is true love freely given and freely received.