New Chapters

New chapters in life are exciting and scary! Filled with firsts both good and bad. I’m writing this posts because I felt convicted that we have to choose if we are going to step into the next chapter in our lives or if we are going to try and live in past chapters.

I’m not saying you shouldn’t process the past or remember things. What I’m saying is I think it is easy to settle and never move forward. It is important to take steps. Yes you will fall. Yes you might fall backward. But if you do it enough times you will see progress.

In order to move on in a new chapter, you have to accept the old is coming to a close. Celebrate and mourn if necessary that a chapter is closing and a new one is beginning. This step will help you shift your mindset.

If you are only speaking negatively to yourself, that’s what your mind hears and you believe what you hear. This is why it’s important to have people speaking into your life, life not negativity. It is also why we need to be kind to ourselves. Give ourselves grace and love. Forgive ourselves for mistakes.

You can move forward into a new chapter and you can pick yourself up (maybe with the help of others) when things get tough. Don’t give up. You will see a payoff if you persevere through the trials.


Uncertainty, a weighty word indeed. It is hard to live with uncertainty but it’s one thing we can be certain about, that there will be uncertainty.

I’ve been going through a healing journey for awhile, but the current chapter began 9/21/18 when I was T-boned by an F150. I haven’t been able to work and the uncertainty of what lies ahead is difficult to sit with day in and day out.

One thing I’ve learned is the more you dwell, ruminate about circumstances the more you will increase you anxiety and depression. Certainly staying away from rumination is easier said then done!

I’ve been struggling some in this area. The one thing I know is that if I can be mindful of the present, be thankful and practice positive coping strategies rather than sitting in a cycle that will lead me to a pit of depression I’d rather practices those strategies and stay out of the pit!

Some things that help me are: 

-talking with friends, playing guitar, listening to music, reading the Bible, praying, gratitude list, watching sports, tv show, going to church, walking, biking, hiking, nature, writing poetry, journaling. These are just a few ideas to help you think of ways you might cope when uncertainty tries to take over your thoughts and you need something to do.


How to Process Emotions

Ouch that hurt! Can you believe that happened? These statements may seem like surface level reaction, but the reality is pain can effect us on a deeper emotional level. Pain hits us at the core of our being.

For years I haven’t known how to deal with pain. I’ve repressed, pretended I wasn’t hurting, ridden many roller coasters and attempted to feel it. None of these methods brought lasting relief. However, I am realizing that feeling them offers the most growth potential. My problem has been I don’t know how to feel intense emotions. I try to and then fear and shame override any other emotions.

The important part of feeling emotions isn’t shutting down, numbing or pretending the feelings aren’t there. It is sitting with the emotions and asking the question, “why do I feel this way right now?” Often times it is connected to a previous experience, environment, trauma or person. Once you identify the connection, explore the previous situation and try to determine what triggered you in the past and/or the current. Sometimes it is helpful to involve other people in your process, but it is not a necessary step to begin growing and healing.


God find me faithful. May I be like Job, someone who suffers well. May I be found as a woman after your heart like David was said to be. May I have the courage to walk by faith like Abraham did. Grant me wisdom as you did Solomon. Give me courage to keep going like Moses. Give me peace, honor and favor as you did Joseph. Let me pray day and night like Daniel. Give me a vision and the strength to carry it out as you did for Nehemiah. Use my lips to speak truth as you did Elijah and the prophets. Give me compassion as Lydia showed Paul. Give me grace and perseverance as you did Paul. Give me courage and favor as you did Esther. Open doors for me to speak to the rich and the poor. Jesus give me your love for the world. Holy Spirit counsel me and comfort me when I’m weak and weary.

I live because of Christ. Without him I am nothing. He forgave me! One day I’ll see him in heaven, but I want everyone to know he died for their sins too. They can receive him in their lives. Confess your sins. Repent and ask him to come into your life. He rose again on third day so we could be with him one day. The men and women I mentioned above didn’t have easy lives but they chose to live for Jesus! Life gets hard, but Jesus won’t leave. He says, “Come to me all who are weary and heavy burdened and I will give you rest (Matthew 11:28).”

Clear the Stage

Clear the stage and tear down idols. I don’t need fancy titles. I want to live a holy life, and look past the pain and strife. The enemy will attack, but I will not focus on the lack. Remind me day and night, that you’re with me God you fight! You’re my knight in shining armor, when I’m with you I am calmer. Bring your peace and let me rest in the comfort of your chest. The stage is clear. It’s just you and me. Clear my heart from filth and shame resurrect my life I’ll never be the same. I will praise the name of Jesus every day. I love that he chooses to stay. When everything and everyone seems to disappear, he comes near and says I’m right here. Rest in me and do not fear. I love you child, you are so dear! Worship me all life long. I love to hear your praises and songs!

A Christmas Shift

Christmas is a time when families get together, presents are given, memories are made, and so much more! Why is this so stressful? Busyness tries to inhabit and abide. We loose sight of what really matters. Time off work is spent running around. We don’t rest. We remember fights and forget we’re blessed. We forget how to celebrate and not be stressed. Jesus is the reason we can rest. He is enough. He’s all that we need. Come spend time with him on your knees. Worship and adore the king of kings. He will change your perspective eternally. I know when I stop striving and simply come. Jesus says child you’re loved not dumb. In a moment my troubles aren’t wearing me down. I’m wrapped up in worship releasing a sound. Worship the king who came as a babe and later for the world his life he gave.

Merry Christmas!

Live Life Full

I’m in a season where I’m crushed, but in the crushing I have a hope for rebuilding. It’s been really hard to go through! I wasn’t able to write much for awhile, but yesterday I was blessed by the Lord’s beautiful, honest words that came in poetic form.

It’s not easy to go through any type of pain. Unfortunately, often it seems to lead to shame.
But that’s not how God looks at pain. He doesn’t see someone who’s going insane. You might hear lies every day. But you can live free and alive today. Learning how to walk is a journey we can take. We can be real with God and others, not fake. Knowing boundaries and how to take care of ourselves. Is important for others and for our own health. It’s ok to cry, it’s ok to be upset. It’s ok to ask questions, remember Jesus wept. Pain and grief can seem debilitating, but God sent his Son because he said you’re worth saving! It’s hard to grieve, but it’s important that we see, our emotions are important to God indeed. If we don’t process them, we don’t know our needs. We all have a story and hope to give, life is so much more fun when we can fully live!

What does living alive mean to you!