Grieving

Grieving is painful and hard! As I was able to process a little tonight, I decided to share what the Lord gave me. He gave me a poem and he gave me assurance: “It’s going to be ok.”

Grieving is hard and full of pain. Sometimes you can’t feel anything. Tears stream down your face and stain. Your heart is broken, the pain it stings. You can’t put your emotions into words. Your thoughts seem to be all over the place. You wonder what direction you’re moving towards. Then in the midst of chaos you find grace. The Lord touches you and gives you space. Space to process and space to grieve. Space to be held and cry with thee. He holds you tight a loving embrace. He looks at you with a smile on his face. Tragedy struck and trauma came. Along cake guilt, pain and shame. But child remember I love you the same. Yesterday, today and tomorrow. I am with in in joy and sorrow. Trust me, you are going to be ok. Though the storm is heavy and the sky is grey. Receive my love, each and every day. You don’t have to strive or try to prove. You just have to rest and simply be you. Let love overflow and heal your soul. Especially when you feel like life’s taking a toll. I suffered great losses this past week. But my God journeys with me through the hills and the peaks. I’m not alone and I’m not afraid. God is my refuge every day! He will help me through the journey of today!

Praying for you as you go through life and process hard things!

Brazil and America Unite

Tonight just outside of Chicago, brothers and sisters from the USA and Brazil worshipped together. Spanish, English and Portuguese praises went up to heaven at the same time from the same location. We stood together with the common denominator of LOVE. Jesus loves us and calls us to love each other. Appearances don’t matter to Jesus. He loves the rich and the poor, the young and the old. I went to Brazil in December 2015 and now they have come to Greater Chicago Church in January 2018. It was such and honor and a blessing! Remember to be lovers of Christ and to go where God calls you to go. To stand with your brothers and sisters around the world. I pray that people from around the world would discover their voice and their place. I pray that orphans would become sons and daughters of the king. Lord open doors for cultures and languages to to come together! My heart is to see unity in nations with the uniting factor being salvation! Singing praises to our Father day and night. That the church would be known for being a light!

New Year

We are a week into the new year 2018. Some had a few days off,  some had a week, others two (if you work in a school). Some spent time with family and friends, others spent time alone, hopefully in the midst of the hustle and bustle everyone found some time to rest.

That last few weeks I’ve experienced a roller coaster of emotions. But overall I lived a balance life. My goal this year is to continue to live a balanced life.  I want to be known as someone who carriers hope, encourages others and gives God the praise! What’s your goal for this year and what to you want to be known for?

Faith+Facing Fears= Growth

When you choose to acknowledge rather than live in denial you are stronger than you know. It is not easy to admit areas where we need to grow, that will require hard work and won’t necessarily be pleasurable.

I enjoy growing, but I prefer to grow in my strengths rather than weaknesses. However, I’m thankful for the growth that comes out of time spent in the trenches.

I know my weaknesses and know my strengths. Facing my weaknesses and choosing to trust is hard and painful. Asking for help is not easy; especially, when help is needed in an area you’ve been hurt in previously. Take courage! Healing can happen in a moment or through process over time. Don’t give up before the miracle happens. Keep asking, seeking and knocking. God wants to give you the courage to face your fears and to live a life filled with joy no matter your circumstances.

My prayer is for you and I to experience the fruit of the spirit: love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. Take heart! Do not be afraid! God is for us! He will help us! Trust in his ways! I can’t say it will be easy, but choosing to face your fears, will take courage and strength to persevere. Choose to trust, you don’t grow alone. Look back on your life, how much have you grown?

5 years

5 years ago I had brain surgery. I could have died multiple times. I had cerebral spinal fluid leaks. I had an infection in my brain. It has been a hard journey. Daily I deal with pain. But God is greater than all my aches and pain. God has brought me through so much and will help me through today and tomorrow. I’m writing this post to remind others and myself that God will never leave you, even in the hardest times. I have felt bruised, broken, alone and misunderstood. I’ve been overwhelmed and stressed with work and dealing with physical and emotional pain. Yet in the midst of the trials, God whispers to me and says you can do it. Keep going my child. I love you. I’m proud of you. God is cheering you on. No matter how far you run, no matter how bad it gets, God’s always encouraging you to keep moving forward, to grow and change. I’ve learned more than I can express in 5 years. I look forward to what the next 5 have in store.